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Farewell, April Kepner
Gray's Anatomy Stern Sarah Drew Adieu's beloved character after nine seasons at the 14th season of ABC's medical drama, at which April's her old flame "I do" said Matthew (19459004) Justin Brüning ). Following the episode, Drew shared rare, never-before-seen photos on Instagram from her swan song, where she shared a heartfelt message to fans over her decade-long run of April, which she plays since season six.
"It's hard to say goodbye to the characters I've played, it always feels like a little death, but that's different," Drew said in an emotional post on Thursday night. "I've lived nineteen months a year, nine years, every year, she's a part of me, I'm a part of her, saying goodbye to her is big and deep and sad and beautiful and happy, it's all." the emotions crumbled to one. "
" Because I've spent so much time with her, standing up for her, investing in her journey, she feels like a real person to me. She has been through a lot of joy. A lot of pain, and I have felt that joy and pain in playing these scenes. Her stories have found their way deep into my soul. So it's hard to let her go, "she continued, revealing the lessons she had learned by living in April." She taught me about courage, about jumping, no matter what anyone else says. She taught me about resilience. She was fired twice and then came back twice with all her heart to throw herself into everything. She had no grudge or anger. She has experienced unspeakable pain and struggled to heal not only herself but her marriage as well. "
" She was pretty flawed and unreasonable that she had to work through her pain in every way, admiring her courage. I admire their fighting spirit. I admire her ability to speak out, regardless of what people think of her. And I admire her compassion and her empathy, "Drew added." April's journey of faith was especially important to me. It has been a great pleasure to tell an honest story about an authentic, versatile, complicated person of faith with a heartfelt journey of faith. "
" April's journey has affected so many, and it was my great privilege, theirs Listening to stories and knowing that through them I have been able to meet people in their own suffering and give them some comfort … to take away 1
The opportunity to play the same character for nine years was for Drew, over her personal growth at this time thought, not lost. "My nine years on Gray's Anatomy has shaped and changed me forever, I've grown as an actor and as a human being, I've developed beautiful lifelong friendships," she recalls to the side-by -Side photos of April in season 6 and season 14. "Last year, I began my journey as a director and had the privilege of being taught by Chandra Wilson, Kevin McKidd and Debbie Allen to become."  "I was able to raise my family and have my two wonderful children while working in an environment created by Shonda Rhimes and her role model for me," Drew pointed out. "And I had to be part of a show that pushes boundaries, inspiring people to pursue their dreams, find strength in need and fight for what they believe in. What an honor and a privilege to have the chance to be a part This extraordinary family. "
Drew also appealed to the long-time Grays fans, and thanked them for supporting them and their character through thick and thin. "I can not unsubscribe without thanking you all! Gray's Anatomy fans are some of the most passionate people I've ever met," she wrote, with a GIF from April, who happily awaits Gray Sloan's hallway as a new chapter. "Thank you for the years of encouragement and commitment and love, you are a POWER !!! I love you!"
In a rare, behind-the-scenes look at Drew's final days as she filmed the finale, she posted a panning of Instagram photos and moving news about her experiences.
"It was such a pleasure to spend my last week on the show with almost everyone in the cast in a beautiful place in Malibu." We laughed so much, away from WAY too much, and we had our share of hugs and Tears, "she wrote next to an open recording of Gray's cast while filming the finale. Drew praised the members of the ensemble and praised the individual performers by expressing their love and appreciation for "Mama Bear" Ellen Pompeo who said "offered so many wonderful advices and cared for me when I entered working motherhood.
The actress also called out the outgoing actress Jessica Capshaw and called her "a bright and radiant light".
"She sees the silver lining in all circumstances, she's a very loyal friend who will help you navigate the floor with life, intelligence, perspective, and real, practical boots," Drew said. "I am so deeply grateful that we walked together through these 9 years, and especially the last two months."
Watch Drew's behind-the-scenes photos expressing her gratitude for co-stars Camilla Luddington, Kevin McKidd, Jesse Williams, Caterina Scorsone, Giacomo Gianniotti, Justin Chambers, James Pickens Jr. and Kelly McCreary
Earlier this month, Pompeo hinted at ET that Capshaw and Drew had no tragic ends in their farewell cast. "You're only killed if your behavior is bad, if you're a nice actor, you'll die nice," she said, adding, "But yes, those endings are not tragic."
Pompeo also shared her personal life When she learned that Capshaw and Drew were leaving after season 14, she apparently repeated that she was not involved in the decision.
"My first reaction was: What What do you mean, why?" And then you go through steps and stages of grief It's hard for them, it's hard for us, it's hard for them Writer who had to make the choice, [who] had to make the creative decision, "said Pompeo. You have to try to support the girls. It's just not easy for someone, but I do not want to do it over myself. It's about them and I've just tried to be as supportive as possible to everyone involved.  RELATED CONTENT: